THE POTTER

Tired and weak I am pick up from the ground and cradled in the arms of the Potters assistant. She whispers soft calming words in my ears as she takes me to the Potters Barn. For a moment it appeared dusty and a strong smell of sweet earth permeated the air. I am greeted instantly by the Potter whose voice is smooth and gentle. He tells me how special I am and although I am chipped, cracked, and damaged he can repair me, however not by a patch job but by breaking me and reshaping me into the vessel I was meant to be. Although this is not what I had wanted to be broken into pieces and softened into moldable clay, I tell him that my life is his do with me as you see fit.
I feel this is where I am at in my life, God in his wisdom is taking me down this road to strip me from everything and to reshape me into a vessel he can use.
Before this cancer was found I was driving home from work feeling quite happy and secure with my future and how everything was turning out for me. Then I started singing praises to God and I heard a voice ask me, "Would you still praise me if everything was taken away?" I was silent for a bit and took a breath and answered God back, "I don’t know what I would do, however I do know that you will be with me and with you all things are possible. So if you see fit to take all this away I will trust you and count on you to be there for me. It was a few weeks latter that I found the lump. In the last 4 months I have no job, sold my car, I am fighting cancer, and with Chemotherapy my health will be compromised. However I can truly say, "IT IS WELL WITH MY SOUL." My life is in His hands and where he wants to lead me I will go. I can’t say that I will always do as he bids me, but that is what is so wonderful about my God is he knows that. He knows we can’t do it on our own we are going to fail. Yet he wants us to come to realize that we are weak, we need help, and we can’t do it on our own. So I close my eyes and lean into him to hold me through this and comfort me for the rest of my life. Praise be to God his mercies endures forever.