FEAR

Is. 41: 10:  Don't be afraid, for I am with you. Don't be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand.

I have had the opportunity to get to know other women who have or had breast cancer; the one common thread is fear. They find a lump and because of fear do nothing, or they see their doctor and live in terror. When I found my lump fear didn’t dictate my path, it did not drive me to my destination. I did have moments were fear sat next to me, was a companion of mine. However, we were never close or best friends. Fear helped me and I looked to it to help me in my path through cancer.

Fear was never more than a one dance guy, as my dance card was full of hope, joy, love, patience, and trust. I was not going to be discouraged for I know God would never allow something to happen to me that I could not bear. I have faith in Him and know he has never left me.

Yes, when I read of others cancer journey and re-occurrences it does take me back some and I wonder what my future holds. However, even without my cancer my future is not known. I can allow this to make me stronger or weaker, better or bitter, I choose to be victorious and to stand where God has planted me proudly and in faith.

I can’t imagine my life any other way.